Poem – I Have My Suspicions

I Have My Suspicions

you whirl around
and see your life is gone
blasted past
detonated, burning
totally frackked
every mistaken choice zippered shut
fizzled
from the tip of your waking eyeball
in a warm bed,
air fouled, the cat staring at you
beginning to meow
the appetite of wonder
the rug kisses your feet like an alligator might
you fall all the way down the hall to the bathroom
all six feet
your face is stuck on the glass mirrored wall
and it is the police booking shot without a number
you will get that later
the girl of your dreams left town twenty five years ago
and you were at the bus station and she took the train

I heard a chickadee and then a crow
and knew I was alive another day

the man with his baby
I won’t be him
that slipped by
I slipped by like an elephant on ice
like a mountain man of the mind
catching ice cold water in my cupped hands
feeling the sun
sneaking all the way into the glory of being all by myself

the traffic was lapping a glacier
the radio was my best friend
I had seen you five years ago
the woman in the car beside me
looked like you
everybody has their own flavour nightmare

roll some bandages
check all the clips
keep some bottled water handy
for thirst, for fires, for icemaking

everyobody is going to the movies

I made a chccklist and handed it to my guardian angel
he threw up
butterflies flew out of his mouth
hit the –30 Celsius wind chill
every one of them shattered

let it all rip
let it all hang out baby

the did or didn’t always works

being on the same page

 

 

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